Effeuile Les Marguerites

by Francesca Guarducci

I saw a dandelion today

I closed my eyes and made a wish

As it broke apart, 

And drifted with the wind,

I remembered

You & I

Running barefoot in your garden, 

Our white dresses dancing in the wind 

Daisies tickling our feet 

As we chased butterflies

And whispered secrets, 

Our little laughter floating in the air 

As I braided daisies in your hair. 

Some say the flower was once a Queen

By the name of Alceste, 

Who sacrificed herself for love

Others say she was a nymph of the meadows

By the name of Belides 

Who danced where the orchards softened into fields, 

Who prayed to the gods to save her from a horrible fate, 

And the gods answered, 

Folding her body into a flower, 

Bellis they called her, 

Bellis Perennis, 

Everlasting Daisy. 

I remember looping the stems carefully

To make us daisy tiaras 

While you sat and ate them, 

Petal by petal

Like it was the most natural thing in the world. 

I remember plucking them one by one, 

Chanting: 

Il m’aime 

un peu,           – pluck

Beaucoup,               – pluck

Passionnément,                 – pluck

À la folie                                     – pluck

Pas du tout                                         – pluck

The ending always felt like chance, 

But it turns out, 

Pas du tout

Is rare

It wasn’t luck or love, 

But rather numbers arranged in a sequence beneath the petals. 

We plucked and plucked, 

Until all that was left was a yellow pearl

And we were surrounded by long stemmed corpses.

I saw daisies dancing in the meadow,
Ox-eye daisies catching the sun,

The same way we tried catching butterflies.

I saw daisies dancing in the meadow,
A thousand ox-eye daisies dancing with the wind, 

The same way we danced in your garden.

I remember feeling as though were the queens of the enchanted forest, 

We were the nymphs, 

Adorned with flower crowns,

Letting the grass remember our shape

As we made angels out of spring

Our childish hearts believing the petals spoke of love.

But we were young then, 

Believing in love 

And in the way a flower would choose our fate.

I saw daisies dancing in the meadow,
Ox-eye daisies glistening like stars in the sky

The same way your garden glistened when it rained. 

And I remember that the garden is gone now,And lives only in my body
The romanticized version of us dissolved
Like sunlight on the grass,
And all that remains are memories,
Of everlasting daisies.